After Four Long Years~

My curiosity brought me here again, 
today I finally remembered my password and finally log back into my blog... 
I don't even know why Im writing a post here 
Dont know if anyone will even read this,
but I have to do this for my sake. 
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Its been four long years, 
a lot of changed in these years. 
First of all I apologize for letting all my viewers down, when I stopped posting and subbing. Due to many personal reasons, I could not continue subbing. 
After going through all my post and youtube accounts today, I feel really regretful, as a fan and as a person. 
When I started liking TVXQ i devoted myself to share the Cassie love internationally and doing so by subs. But at the peak of my fan career I was met with a lot of hardships that couldnt and wouldn't allow me to continue. I am thankful for all of you who really enjoyed my subs and continue to give me support when I needed it. I remember starting subbing online. I was 16 at that time, didnt know anything about the software, often scolded by fans because I would translate something wrong or the subs were done sloppy. But throughout time, my videos grew with me. The endless support that I was getting from other Cassie's pushed me to continue devoting myself to TVXQ! I am 20 years old now, and I still remember how happy I was when people thank me for subbing a video and allowing them to understand what they're favorite idol was saying. My subbing days were very memorable and I have to thank my viewers for that :)

When I said a lot has changed, I meant it. When I subbed five members were present. Now, TVXQ has two members and JYJ is formed. I never really shared my thoughts about this. But honest to God, I miss the five a lot. At times I would watch TVXQ videos over and over again, wondering how it would be like if they were still a whole. My love for them will never change. Although some Cassie are split between the two, but a true Cassie stays with all five. I AM THAT CASSIE.

I constantly wonder what I can do now as a fan. Yes, I continue to buy there cd and merchandise, but the satisfaction i get from that is not the same as the satisfaction I get from subbing. But college does not give me excess time to do subbing anymore. On top of that, there are less subbers out there now, I dont even know if there are any that are up to date with subbing. A lot of Cassie's has also moved on to other groups like Super Junior, SHINee, EXO, etc. But i really want to do something for the remaining Cassies out there. PLEASE TELL ME WHAT TO DO?

On a happier note, my life goal is to at least see TVXQ, mainly Yunho once in my lifetime. I am finally given that opportunity this year. This girl right here is finally going to see her idol at SM TOWN WORLD TOUR III in LA! I am super excited to finally see Yunho. So excited to a point that I cant sleep. I know I'm probably going to cry when they come out of stage but I told my friend to slap me if I do. I am not going to waste my time crying when I should be staring at him with my mouth opened. This is going to be a once in a lifetime experience and I am super excited.

WOW! I wrote a lot :) Hope you guys still read my blog or come to blog once and a while to see if I have new things. I will continue to post (not knowing what yet, but im hoping some of you can tell me). I will continue to blabble about TVXQ, continue to love and support them. ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH!! THATS MY MOTTO AND ADVICE TO YOU ALL :)